I didn’t fall asleep at night,
So, I kept scrolling down.
Hoping to find some magic post,
which could change my state of angst.
I saw most videos and read all blogs,
but the rush of inspiration didn’t last for long.
So, when my eyes were tired enough,
I stared at the ceiling right above.
A series of slides passed through my mind,
where I was successful and everything was right.
I thought and thought and thought some more,
and all my thoughts made me feel like never before.
I smiled, I frowned, I laughed and I cried,
And did live a fanciful life in my mind.
But, then every night was quite the same,
With all the replays now seeming to be lame.
And when the rush of adrenaline did subside,
I was pulled back to reality where nothing was right.
Three hours had passed and it was already one,
After four hours, I had to see the sun.
My time did slip right through my fingers,
I wondered why I didn’t manage it well.
I groaned over the videos, the blogs that I read,
When I was supposed to snuggle and sleep in my bed.
I bargained my time for a satisfaction I didn’t get,
from all the scrolling down my mind was then fed.
Night after night, I repeated this course,
What kept me going? Was it some brute force?
And hence, I lost most beautiful days,
from where everything was to be right.
The feeling of regret,
Added up to my plight.
A few minutes from now, the clock will strike two,
To get back my lost time, there is nothing I can do.